I keep praising you Lord, But I don't know what for.

MY DEAREST LORD

I DON'T MEAN THE TITLE,
BUT FEEL THE TITLE

I HAVE A DILLY OF A DISEASE

IT BAFFLES THE STRONGEST, MOST FAITHFUL

AND 

WEAKEST, MOST FRAGILE OF HUMAN MINDS

WHEN YOU THINK YOU HAVE IT FIGURED OUT

IT THROWS YOU A CURVE BALL!

MY KIDS SAY WOULD HELP ME AND WOULD NOT LEAVE ME,

MY BROTHER AND SISTER SAID THEY WOULD BE HERE

 MY FRIENDS SAID THEY CARED

  

 AND 

  I THINK ALS IS TOO MUCH FOR ALL.

 ALZHEIMER', PARKINSON'S, COPD

CANCER AND MUCH MORE 

ARE ALL DIFFICULT

 BUT THIS ONE IS BAFFLING.

IT IS TOO MUCH FOR SOME TO CONSIDER

MY MIND IS SWIMMING. 

 EVERYTHING THAT WAS ISN'T

EVERYTHING THAT IS WASN'T

EVERYONE IS TRYING TO HELP FAST,

BUT THE DISEASE IS GOING FASTER!!

EVERYONE THINKS THEY HAVE A HANDLE ON IT!

AND WHAM ANOTHER OBSTACLE!

LORD YOU KNOW THE HAIRS ON MY HEAD,

YOU KNOW MY FEARS,

KNOWING IS ONE THING

 HELPING ME AND OTHERS DEAL WITH IT IS ANOTHER

LORD I AM NOT AT PEACE

ACCEPTANCE

I CAN'T GET OUT OF IT!

LAST NIGHT,
IT WAS JUST YOU AND ME.

I COULD NOT BREATHE AND COULD NOT TALK.

I WAS AFRAID.

 I PRAISE YOU THOUGH,
YOU GAVE ME THE IDEA 
TO USE MY NEBULIZER

AND 
THEN MY BI-PAP

I NEEDED TO GET TO THE DOCTOR !

 AND DID NOT KNOW WHO TO CALL

I TEXTED, RICH

  YOU TOLD ME THAT
AND 
HE CALLED HIS DAD

H

HIS DAD,
DICK

TOOK ME THIS MORNING AND I FEEL MORE PEACEFUL!

I ASKED YOU TO INTERVENE IN DICK'S HEART AND GIVE HIM PEACE

I PRAISE YOU LORD
YOU HAVE TURNED MOUNTAINS INTO MOLE HILLS

BUT LORD 

DID YOU NEED TO USE MY DEMISE

I KNOW, I KNOW!

WE CAN'T HAVE OUR CAKE AND EAT IT TOO!

WELL,
I WANT TO HAVE IT AND EAT IT TOO. 

TAKE THIS DISEASE AWAY FROM MY FAMILY. 

IF THAT MEANS LETTING ME GO,

THAT IS ALRIGHT BY ME. 

I THOUGHT MY PARENTS WERE DIFFICULT,
AS AN ADULT CHILD
TO DEAL WITH THEIR DISEASES.

 BUT THAT WAS A PIECE OF CAKE!

HOW LORD?
HOW AM SUPPOSE TO GO GENTLY INTO THE NIGHT,

WHEN I AM CAUSING SO MUCH PAIN AND ANGUISH?

I KNOW FAMILIES THAT HAVE HAD THREE OR FOUR FAMILY MEMBERS WITH THIS DISEASE AND ONLY ONE IS LEFT.

I KNOW PEOPLE THAT HAVE LASTED A LONG TIME. 

I DON'T KNOW WHAT MINE WILL BE 

BUT IT IS GOING AWFULLY FAST.

ALL IS I CAN SEE IS A NURSING HOME IN THREE MONTH'S

PLEASE LORD GIVE ME THE STRENGTH TO BE 

GRACEFUL

 TO HELL WITH A VAN

I WON'T ENJOY GOING ANYWHERE.

SO HOW DO YOU GO ON WITH

SUCH CHALLENGES LORD. 

THIS IS YOUR LIFE NOT MINE.

DO YOU WANT TO GO TO THE CROSS AGAIN?

  

AND HANG THERE FOR A LONG TIME.

THAT IS WHAT THIS FEELS LIKE.

I BEG YOU

 HELP ME SEE THE LIGHT!

FEAR NOT FOR YOU ARE WITH ME! 

I KNOW YOU ARE THERE

BUT I CAN'T FEEL YOU.

I AM STRUGGLING SO

THERE ARE ONLY QUESTIONS NOT ANSWERS!

BUT I KNOW YOU WILL 

BRING THIS TOGETHER FOR THE GOOD, 

I HAVE FAITH YOU WILL.

BUT LORD,

CAN YOU HEAR ME

WOULD YOU GET OFF THE BENCH 

AND 

GET IN THE GAME!!!

I TOOK A BEATING THE LAST GAME
AND I WAS 
ONLY A WATER BOY!

I THANK YOU FOR LEAVING IN THE GAME!

BUT IT IS YOUR TURN TO GET IN THIS GAME 

I NEED YOU,

I NEED YOU 

OH HOW I NEED YOU!

PLEASE LORD 

SHOW US HOW THIS GAME IS PLAYED

I DON'T KNOW HOW TO PLAY RIGHT NOW!