MY DEAREST LORD I REALIZE YOU ARE WITH ME

DEAR LORD I THOUGHT YOU WERE HIDING

 BUT AS I GET WORSE EVERY DAY

 AND FRIENDS AREN'T CONTACTING ME

  

 OR STOPPING BY

 WHICH LEFT ME VERY LONELY

 AND WONDER

HOW ANY ONE

 COULD IMMEDIATELY STOP LIVING

AND 

LOOKING TO THE FUTURE

IT SEEMS IMPOSSIBLE IF SOMEONE ISN'T

GOING

 THROUGH A SEVERE CRISIS

 LIKE A NATURAL DISASTER

 OR

 IF ONE  CAN'T

  

 CAN'T GET OUT.

THEN THAT IS W

 I HAVE TO SPEAK MY TRUTH

 WHILE I WAS IN MY HOME 

 I COULDN'T IMAGINE NOT LIVING THERE

 I HAD A FEED TUBE  SURGERY

WHICH WAS HARD ON ME

  AND WHEN RELEASED

 MY CHILDREN SAID 

YOU NEED 24 HOURS CARE

 AND FOUND A NICE REHAB PLACE

 WHICH HAS TURNED OUT TO BE WHERE I LIVE

I CAN'T EVEN CLIMB MY

 STEPS

 INTO MY HOME.

 THE LAST THREE YEARS

 MY APARTMENT

I FINALLY GOT IT TO WHERE I LIKED IT;

HOW I WANTED TO PAINT IT
 
AND GET WHITE COVERS FOR LIVING ROOM SUMMER FURNITURE

OUT DOOR FURNITURE

 INSIDE I HAVE LABELS 

TO NAME COMPUTER WIRES AND OTHER THINGS

  .
 I GOT THE BEST BATHING SUIT I HAD EVER HAD.

WELL ENOUGH ABOUT MY HOME


WHEN I HEAR SOMEONE

  TALK  ABOUT GOING TO THE MARKET ,

   BUYING FLOWERS,

  THURSDAY FARMERS  MARKET


SHOPPING FOR CLOTHES


 PIERCED EARRINGS


 EATING ANYTHING


 DEAR GOD


 I AM HANDLING IT AND LETTING GO


 THE ONLY WAY I COULD DO THAT


IS YOUR DIVINE HELP


THAT ALLOWED


 NOT TO SUFFER THOSE LOSSES.


WAS NOT ME JUST ASK CAROL ADAMS

THE WAY  I CARRIED ON WITH HER

ABOUT NOT WANTING TO LEAVE  MY PLACE

PROBABLY SCARED THE WHOLE CHURCH

IF SHE STAYS IN HER APARTMENT

 WE CAN'T HELP WITH THAT DREADED DISEASE.

SO I AM NEARLY TOTALLY ISOLATED

AND ME AS A MEMBER OF MY SUNDAY SCHOOL CLASS

 COULD EVER FATHOM SUCH A LOSS.


 LET ALONE THE LOSS OF BODY FUNCTIONING

WELL LORD

I HAVE CHALLENGED YOU INSIDE AND OUT

 AND FINALLY

 I COULD NOT TAKE THIS GRAVE LIFE


WITHOUT LAUGHTER AND JOKES


IF IT WERE NOT

FOR YOUR BELIEF IN ME

AND MY BELIEF IN YOU

THIS IS A GOD-CENTERED WORK

I HAVE BEEN SLIDING DOWN

INTO THE DEPTH'S OF DARKNESS AND LORD

YOU HAVE KEPT ME A FLOAT

PRAISE THE ;

LORD BECAUSE HE HAS DONE

A GREAT FEAT IN ME!




















































 

•  I

ALONG DAYS NIGHT, LORD I AM FAILING

LORD

I DON'T KNOW WHETHER PEOPLE  

UNDERSTAND 

HOW FAST THIS DISEASE TRAVELS.

ANYTHING YOUR FAVORITE FOOD WAS

 TO CARE LESS FOR ANY FOOD

I WOULD NOT 

LIKE

TO EVEN BE SERVED

MADE BY 

SOMEONE ELSE

IS NOT PLEASING MEET

 LORD WHAT AM I TO LEARN

FROM ALL THESE

LOSES

 YOU DON'T EXPECT

  

 LORD 

 MY INDEPENDENCE

 HAS BEEN SHOT DOWN

SOMEONE HAS TO BATH ME

 I CAN'T EVEN WASH MY OWN HAIR 

 I HAVE TO HAVE TWO PEOPLE

     

 TO GO ANYWHERE

  

EVEN THE BATHROOM.

  I HAVE A LOT

I CAN DO 

 MANY THINGS THAT HAVEN'T

 GONE  

 COMMUNICATION

  

 FAMILY, FRIENDS, PASTORS.AND GROUPS

 IT IS BLESSING  

I HAVE  MY EYES

 MY HANDS ARE ONLY SLIGHTLY

 USEFUL.

 THIS IS MY WORSE SEASON

  

 IF SOMEONE HAD TOLD I WOULD LOSE

ALL EIGHT MONTHS SINCE I STARTED TO LOSE

 IN ALL WAYS.

 USUALLY PEOPLE HAVE

 SOMETHING THEY CAN WORK

OUT THROUGH

 HEALTHY LIVING.

 NOW THERE IS NOTHING TO DO 

 BUT MANAGEMENT

 OF HOW YOU LIVE

  

 WITH ALS 

IT IS A FIGHT 

   

 TO DO ANYTHING.

 LORD THANK YOU GUIDING ME
TO ACCEPTANCE

OF MY LIFE

   I FEEL I AM BRAVE

 AND COURAGEOUS

 LORD I WISH
 
 I DID NOT WANT BE BRAVE

 OR COURAGEOUS,

 THOSE ATTRIBUTESI
 
 AT THE COST OF SOPHIE AND ANNIE

 RICH AND STACY

GREG

 BRENT
  
 BARBARA AND FAMILY

 JOHNNY AND BELKIS

 A NEW FOUND PEACE

WITH DICK

 CONNIE AND HER FAMILY

 EDIE AND HER FAMILY
 
GENE AND HIS FAMILY

AND MAYBE IT NOT WHAT I PLANNED
   

 THAT IS THE MOST PROBLEMITIC

IT'S ALL THE DREAMS AND LOVE OF PEOPLE

 "NEIGHBORHOOD FRIENDS CARE"

STYLE AND CREATION
 
 CHURCH, BIBLE DISCUSSION
  
 LORD THESE ARE NOT WHAT I AM BRAVE ABOUT

ALL THESE  I AM  STRUGGLING WITH AND DON'T TO WANT LEAVE
 
 AM I SELFISH OR  

 YOU WILL WORK IT OUT


I FEEL CONFIDENT IN YOU LORD

THAT  YOU WILL FIGURE OUT WHAT 
 I AM TO DO.