DEAREST LORD, I HAVE LEARNED SO MUCH TODAY

I PRAISE YOU LORD

AS I LOOK FOR ANSWERS 

 YOUR MINISTERS HAVE LED ME TO NEW HEIGHTS TODAY

I LEARNED YOU GAVE YOUR ONLY SON

 TO SAVE US FROM OUR SINS.

 LORD,  I KNEW THAT EVEN THOUGH 

 I DID NOT PUT IT ON A SHELF OUT OF THE WAY. 

 FOR ME AND OTHERS IT IS A TRUE GIFT. 

 AS FOR ALL PEOPLE IT IT DIFFICULT 

 TO UNDERSTAND 

 HOW YOU COULD REALLY FORGIVE OUR SINS

 WE DO SIN SO MUCH!

BUT THEN THERE IS GRACE

NO MATTER WHAT WE DO OR DON'T DO 

 YOU PUT THAT ON A SHELF

 ALSO

 IT DOES NOT MATTER 

 WE STILL GET GRACE!

 THAT PART,  I DID NOT PUT TO THAT LEVEL

SO OFTEN,

  I DO SOMETHING AND THINK THAT MATTERS

OR

 I DON'T DO SOMETHING

  

(LIKE MOVE RIGHT AWAY)

THAT DOES NOT MATTER EITHER!

 ANOTHER THING I LEARNED WAS 

 THE IMPORTANCE OF LETTING GO

 LIKE THE LANGUAGE OF LETTING GO

THAT DOES NOT MATTER IN ITSELF

 IF ONE DOES NOT GIVE THE ROOM FOR GRACE

TO TAKE HOLD OF WHAT WE LET GO OF

 AND ALLOW YOU TO DEAL WITH WHAT WE LET GO OF.

 THEN THERE IS FAITH AND LOVE

LOVE CONQUERS ALL , WHICH WE HAVE HEARD

 BUT FAITH MAKES IT ALL POSSIBLE

 FAITH COMES FIRST

 LOVE IS NOT THE END ALL,
IN ITSELF BUT 

 FAITH IS EVERYTHING.

 AT LEAST,
THAT IS WHAT I

LEARNED TODAY.

 I DID NOT GO OUT WITH PEOPLE TODAY

 BUT LISTENED TO ALL KINDS OF MESSAGES

I NEEDED THAT 

WHEN  I GOT A DIVORCE,

I WENT TO MANY CHURCHES HOPING YOU WOULD REACH ME.

I AM FACED WITH THE SAME EMOTIONAL TURMOIL 

BUT CAN NOT DRIVE AND GO PLACES

 THEREFORE  I WATCHED TV

 EVERY CHANNEL I COULD GET HOLD OF.

 I EVEN SAW KERRY SHOOK WHO WROTE 

 ONE MONTH TO LIVE

 WOW

 YOUR GRACE IS SUFFICIENT.

 I HAVE CRIED EVERY TIME I SEE SOMEONE I HAVE NOT SEEN FOR A WHILE. 

  

 WHEN WILL I EVER CALM DOWN 

 NOT TILL, I AM DEAD

 THEN I WILL BE WITH YOU 

 I KNOW THAT LORD

 IT DOES NOT MATTER WHAT I DO OR DO NOT DO

I KNOW I HAVE HURT PEOPLE 

 BY NOT BEING GRATEFUL ENOUGH AT THE TIME

 BUT I AM SO GRATEFUL FOR EVERY LITTLE THING AND BIG THING.

 I HAVE BEEN GRACED WITH A GREAT FAMILY AND FRIENDS AND SUPPORTERS.

 I KNOW YOU WILL BLESS THEM FOR THEIR EFFORT

 THIS IS SUCH A DIFFICULT JOB.  

WATCHING A FRIEND AND LOVED ONE FAIL PHYSICALLY

 BUT MY MIND IS GOOD

  FOR WHICH I AM THANKFUL

   

 I WAS TOLD YESTERDAY TO SHOW MY BODY APPRECIATION.

WELL THANK YOU BODY FOR HELPING ME BREATHE STILL AND SIT UP AND WALK.

 I KNOW IT IS A STRUGGLE TO SWALLOW,

BUT THANK YOU LORD

AND MY BODY

I CAN STILL SWALLOW SOMETHING! 

 THANK YOU BODY,

THAT I COULD CURL MY HAIR AND PUT ON SOME MAKE-UP

THANK YOU BODY 

 I COULD BRUSH MY TEETH

AND SPIT IT OUT. 

THANK YOU BODY THAT WE GOT THROUGH THE CONFERENCE

 YESTERDAY

 THANK YOU BRENT AND GREG  

  

 NO MATTER HOW DIFFICULT IT WAS YOU GOT ME THERE.

 THE MORE I SEE THE MORE IT GIVES ME HOPE!

 I DID GET HOPE FROM LORA YESTERDAY

 PRAISE YOU LORD YOU GAVE

 A DIRECTION, WHERE I COULD GET SOME ANSWERS FOR MY FEARS.

 FRIENDS AND FAMILY HAVE SO MUCH TO DEAL WITH 

 I WAS GLAD I COULD TALK TO LORA,
HONESTLY.

 WHEN I GET HONEST ANSWERS  

 I CAN FACE THINGS BETTER.

 WHEN OTHERS DOUBT,
I CAN NOT EXPLAIN TO THEM HOW MUCH I UNDERSTAND. 

I BLOG SO I CAN COMMUNICATE TO SO MANY WITHOUT REPEATING MYSELF.

IT IS SO DIFFICULT TO BREATHE LET ALONE TALK.  

 IT IS OVERWHELMING

I THINK OF SO MUCH APPRECIATION TO SPEAK AND CAN NOT SPEAK. 

 IT IS GOING TO GET MORE DIFFICULT

I DON'T KNOW HOW OTHER ALS PATIENTS WHO LIVE ALONE DO IT.  

 BUT I APPRECIATE MY BODY THAT IT ALLOWS ME TO DO THAT FOR THIS DAY. 

 TO ALL ALS PATIENTS HOORAY

 YOUR BODY IS DOING SOMETHING TODAY

 THANK YOU LORD

 I PRAISE YOU