MY DEAREST LORD I REALIZE YOU ARE WITH ME

DEAR LORD I THOUGHT YOU WERE HIDING

 BUT AS I GET WORSE EVERY DAY

 AND FRIENDS AREN'T CONTACTING ME

  

 OR STOPPING BY

 WHICH LEFT ME VERY LONELY

 AND WONDER

HOW ANY ONE

 COULD IMMEDIATELY STOP LIVING

AND 

LOOKING TO THE FUTURE

IT SEEMS IMPOSSIBLE IF SOMEONE ISN'T

GOING

 THROUGH A SEVERE CRISIS

 LIKE A NATURAL DISASTER

 OR

 IF ONE  CAN'T

  

 CAN'T GET OUT.

THEN THAT IS W

 I HAVE TO SPEAK MY TRUTH

 WHILE I WAS IN MY HOME 

 I COULDN'T IMAGINE NOT LIVING THERE

 I HAD A FEED TUBE  SURGERY

WHICH WAS HARD ON ME

  AND WHEN RELEASED

 MY CHILDREN SAID 

YOU NEED 24 HOURS CARE

 AND FOUND A NICE REHAB PLACE

 WHICH HAS TURNED OUT TO BE WHERE I LIVE

I CAN'T EVEN CLIMB MY

 STEPS

 INTO MY HOME.

 THE LAST THREE YEARS

 MY APARTMENT

I FINALLY GOT IT TO WHERE I LIKED IT;

HOW I WANTED TO PAINT IT
 
AND GET WHITE COVERS FOR LIVING ROOM SUMMER FURNITURE

OUT DOOR FURNITURE

 INSIDE I HAVE LABELS 

TO NAME COMPUTER WIRES AND OTHER THINGS

  .
 I GOT THE BEST BATHING SUIT I HAD EVER HAD.

WELL ENOUGH ABOUT MY HOME


WHEN I HEAR SOMEONE

  TALK  ABOUT GOING TO THE MARKET ,

   BUYING FLOWERS,

  THURSDAY FARMERS  MARKET


SHOPPING FOR CLOTHES


 PIERCED EARRINGS


 EATING ANYTHING


 DEAR GOD


 I AM HANDLING IT AND LETTING GO


 THE ONLY WAY I COULD DO THAT


IS YOUR DIVINE HELP


THAT ALLOWED


 NOT TO SUFFER THOSE LOSSES.


WAS NOT ME JUST ASK CAROL ADAMS

THE WAY  I CARRIED ON WITH HER

ABOUT NOT WANTING TO LEAVE  MY PLACE

PROBABLY SCARED THE WHOLE CHURCH

IF SHE STAYS IN HER APARTMENT

 WE CAN'T HELP WITH THAT DREADED DISEASE.

SO I AM NEARLY TOTALLY ISOLATED

AND ME AS A MEMBER OF MY SUNDAY SCHOOL CLASS

 COULD EVER FATHOM SUCH A LOSS.


 LET ALONE THE LOSS OF BODY FUNCTIONING

WELL LORD

I HAVE CHALLENGED YOU INSIDE AND OUT

 AND FINALLY

 I COULD NOT TAKE THIS GRAVE LIFE


WITHOUT LAUGHTER AND JOKES


IF IT WERE NOT

FOR YOUR BELIEF IN ME

AND MY BELIEF IN YOU

THIS IS A GOD-CENTERED WORK

I HAVE BEEN SLIDING DOWN

INTO THE DEPTH'S OF DARKNESS AND LORD

YOU HAVE KEPT ME A FLOAT

PRAISE THE ;

LORD BECAUSE HE HAS DONE

A GREAT FEAT IN ME!




















































 

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