WELL LORD IT IS TIME TO TALK TO YOU

DEAR LORD

I PRAISE YOU FOR ALL THE OPPORTUNITIES

YOU HAVE GIVEN ME

 ALL YOU KNOW 

 I DON'T SHUT UP

 MAYBE I SHOULD

 FOR A LONG TIME I WAS A MOUSE

 A RUG FOR PEOPLE TO WALK ON

 THEN 

 I LEARNED TO SPEAK

 WITH MY BELOVED COUNSELOR

 AND THEN OTHERS

 I USED TO BELIEVE,

IF YOU LET PEOPLE KNOW WHAT YOU REALLY THOUGHT,

THAT THEY WOULD LEAVE YOU

AS A FRIEND.

 SO I WAS SICKENING NICE

SO I WOULD NOT MAKE ANYONE ANGRY.

 IT MADE EVERYONE ANGRY.

I COULD TELL YOU STORY AFTER STORY. 

THEN I STARTED GETTING HONEST
AND 
NO ONE LIKED THAT EITHER.

 NOW GOD,
I DON'T HAVE TIME TO FIGURE OUT,
WHAT PEOPLE WANT.

 I KNOW CHARACTER IS DEFINED 

BY SAYING 

NO TO ANYTHING YOU CAN'T SAY YES TO GOD.

SO WHAT AM I TRYING TO DO?

IS TALK TO YOU

 AND WITH YOU,
  I SAY,
I CAN COME TO YOU WITH ANYTHING!

  

 SO I WILL TELL YOU ABOUT LAST,

I HAD TERRIBLE NIGHT MARES

 I DREAMED PEOPLE WERE STABBING ME IN THE CHEST.  

 I WANTED TO GET UP AND BLOG,
BUT I COULD NOT.  

 I THOUGHT THAT WAS UGLY AND
NOT EVEN YOU WOULD LIKE ME TO WRITE THAT. 

 WELL I WROTE IT. 

  

 IT WAS TERRIBLE AND I FEARED,
YOU WOULD NOT WANT TO HEAR THE AWFUL.

 WHO AM I TO TRY A SPARE GOD THE UGLY TRUTH?

 AM I  GRANDIOSE?
HOW COULD I BELIEVE I AM TO THINK,
I CAN NOT DISAPPOINT GOD. 

 THEN, IF I CAN DISAPPOINT GOD 

 WHY CAN'T I MAKE OTHER PEOPLE DISAPPOINTED IN ME TOO.

IS THERE ANYTHING I CAN'T WRITE HERE,
THAT WOULD NOT SHOCK THE MASSES
OR
YOU GOD

SOME TIMES PEOPLE THINK TERRIBLE THINGS

 EVEN HOW THEY COULD DESTROY SOMEONE ELSE.

MURDER I MEAN

DO WE HAVE TO GO THROUGH THE UGLY TO GET TO THE BEAUTIFUL.

 I DON'T KNOW

 YOU SEE WHY I DID NOT WANT TO BLOG

 I AM MIXED UP.

 FEELINGS ARE FLOODING IN.

 MAYBE I SHOULD BE PUT IN JAIL.

I FEEL GUILTY ABOUT SO MUCH AND I BLAME OTHERS.

 BURDENS, MESSES, TROUBLES

 PLEASE GOD LIFT ME ABOVE ALL THIS. 

HELP ME TO HAVE PEACE

 LIVE AND LET LIVE

BLESS AND BE BLESSED

 GIVE AND ALLOW OTHERS TO GIVE TO YOU. 

 I AM JUST TRYING TO REMEMBER ALL YOU HAVE TAUGHT ME.

 FOOTPRINTS

 LORD WILL YOU CARRY ME FOR A WHILE