THE FLOOD GATES OPEN

MY DEAREST LORD

IT AIN'T FUNNY

I HAVE ALWAYS SEEN THE HUMOROUS SIDE OF LIFE'S LITTLE TREASURES

BUT LORD THIS IS MORE THAN I CAN HANDLE

DO YOU KNOW HOW TO MUTES SOMEONE WHO CAN'T TALK.

TAKE THEIR PEN OR PAPER AWAY  

 GREG CALLS THAT MUTING MOM

 I AM REALLY AT A LOSS

WHEN I CAN'T SPEAK

  

 IT AFFECTS EVERYTHING YOU DO.

LET'S TALK ABOUT IT GOD, JUST YOU AND ME. 

 IF I AM GOING TO LEARN A LESSON FROM THIS,
IT IS BEYOND ME.

 I WENT TO CHAPEL AT THE HOSPITAL THIS MORNING

A SONG WAS SUNG 

 DO YOU KNOW WHAT IT FEELS LIKE
ENJOY SINGING 
ESPECIALLY

CHRISTIAN MUSIC.

THANK YOU LORD THAT KURT AND OTHERS GAVE ME A COMPLIMENT

ON MY VOICE AND ASKED ME INTO THE CHOIR.

I ALWAYS HAD A PECULIAR FEAR OF SINGING IN A CHOIR. 

 I KNEW I LOVED TO SING FROM THE TOP OF MY HEAD TO THE BOTTOM OF MY FEET.

I STILL CAN MOVE SOME OF THE PARTS TO RHYTHM

 BUT I FEEL PEOPLE LOOK AT ME AND WONDER WHY I AM NOT SINGING.

I DON'T CARE ABOUT THAT

 BUT I DO CARE ABOUT NOT EXPRESSING ALL THE LOVE AND PASSION

I HAVE TO SHARE:

WHAT DOES NOT SPEAKING 
MEAN TO ME.

 THE BIBLE STORY

THE GREAT LOSS

 WITH THIS DISEASE, ALS

 IT CAN ATTACK

 EVERY PART OF YOUR BODY.

 BLIND, HEARING IMPAIRED, WALKING,

 EATING, SWALLOWING, BREATHING

WELL LORD THAT IS A BUNDLE.

I FELT BAD FOR PEOPLE

WHO HAD DIFFICULTY HEARING

ESPECIALLY IN SUNDAY SCHOOL AND CHURCH.

I WAS ALWAYS A PART OF AMPLIFICATION,

THEN I FELT BAD ABOUT SOMEONE WHOSE VISION WAS IN TROUBLE

CATARACTS ARE ONE THING

BUT MY MOTHER HAD

MACULAR DEGENERATION.

 I TRIED TO LEARN ALL I COULD SO I COULD HELP MY MOTHER.

I SUFFERED A BROKEN ANKLE AND ROTATOR CUFF SURGERY

IT TOOK A YEAR  FOR ME TO RECOVER BUT I COULD RECOVER

 IN PHYSICAL  THERAPY

I SAW KNEE AND HIP REPLACEMENTS AND STROKES

 ALL COULD GET WELL

 THAT IS THE DIFFERENCE OF MS

 YOU DEAL WITH IT FOR A LONG DEGENERATIVE TIME

I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN MADE CONSCIOUS OF THE NEEDS OF OTHERS

 "NEIGHBORHOOD FRIENDS CARE"  

IS TO TOUCH JUST A FRACTION OF PEOPLE IN NEED.

 I JOKE: IT IS LIKE HELPING SOMEONE CHANGE A LIGHT BULB

THIS BLOG ALWAYS TAKES ME IN CIRCLES

 THE DIFFERENCE IS AN AILMENT OR AN AFFLICTION.

 I WILL SAY AN AILMENT GETS BETTER

 AN AFFLICTION YOU LIVE WITH

 
 WHAT CLASS DOES ALS FALL INTO.

  YOU REALLY DON'T DEGENERATE

YOU INCINERATE

 PUFF IT IS GONE FOREVER

 TODAY MY VOICE

 I GO DOWN THE HALL AND PEOPLE SAY HI

 I CAN WAVE

 I WANT TO SAY THANK YOU

 I DO THUMBS UP

 I CAN'T SAY A WORD

 I HAVE GOOD IDEAS,

BEAUTY TO SHARE WITH PEOPLE

 YOU MADE SO CONSCIOUS OF THE NEEDS OF OTHERS

 AND THEN  I AM SHUT UP

 I KNOW LORD YOU DID NOT CAUSE THIS

 BUT IT IS SO PAINFUL

 WHEN I POINT,

KNOW ONE UNDERSTANDS IT

IS LIKE BEING IN A CONSTANT

PANTOMIME

LORD HOW TO MAKE SENSE OF THIS

 I LOVE SO MUCH AND HAVE SO MUCH TO SHARE WITH OTHERS.

 WHY IS THAT SOMEONE WHO CAN SPEW HATE

CAN LIVE AND BE ABUNDANTLY FRUITFUL,

IF THAT IS WHAT YOU CALL IT  

WHY DO THOSE OF US WHO TRY TO WORK FOR OTHERS

   GETS KICKED IN THE KNEES

 I HAVE CHALLENGED YOU TO MAKE SENSE 

 OF THIS LORD.

I CAN  NOT SAY IT IS A GIFT

 I SAY,

"I WANT TO RETURN THE GIFT AT THE COUNTER"

NO SUCH LUCK 

 YOU DON'T TAKE RETURNS. 

WHEN PEOPLE ARE INPATIENT 

 WITH WHAT THEY GO THROUGH DRIVING AND SHOPPING IN LINES

I SAY, " TRY THIS ON FOR PERMANENT"

NEVER BEING ABLE TO SPEAK.

 IT IS GONE NADA

IT IS SO UNBELIEVABLY PAINFUL

 I JUST WANT TO HUG EVERYBODY AND SAY 

 I AM STILL HERE!

 I AM STILL HERE!