LORD I TRY TO BE PRESENT

LORD TEACH ME TO HANG ON

I AM STRUGGLING WITH EVERYTHING

 MY HEALTH WHICH IS DIFFICULT IS GETTING WORSE EVERYDAY

BUT i STILL HAVE MY WISHES AND DREAMS

I LIKED TO GO TO HOME SHOWS AND CRAFTS SHOWS

 THAT WAS NOT SOMETHING BIG.

 THE TIME I WENT I GOT A MOTEL ROOM TO GO. 

 I HATED TO CALL BARBARA, RICH OR  GREG,

  CAN I COME DOWN THIS WEEK AND DO?

 NOW I WOULD GIVE ANYTHING TO ASK CAN  I COME DOWN

I AM SURE IT WOULD NOT BE A BAD WEEK-END

 I WANTED STACY AND THE GIRLS TO COME UP

AND STAY WITH NANA

SO THEY WOULD

  GET TO KNOW NANA'S PLACE

. I WANTED TO GO ON A FAMILY VACATION

 AND EVEN PAID FOR IT

AND 

WE COULD NOT GET IT TOGETHER.

WHAT IS THAT NOTION HE WHO LIVES IN THE WILL OF GOD WILL BE GIVEN MUCH, 

 WELL LORD I DON'T HAVE MUCH TIME

 AND 

 

I GUESS I AM IN FOR A BIG SURPRISE

A PROMISE IS A PROMISE.

 THIS PAPERWORK AND 

 FILING FOR A NURSING HOME HELP

 IS A KILLER.

 I CAN'T  EAT VERY MUCH AND DON'T HAVE STRENGTH

 BUT THANK YOU FOR THE FEED TUBE.

 I GUESS THAT WAS GIVING ME MORE THAN I COULD EVER WANT.

LORD YOU GAVE ME SOPHIE AND ANNIE WHICH I TREASURE 

 AND I ENJOYED MY APARTMENT

AND 

THE NEW COLORS WHICH 

JC HELPED ME DO.

I WAS HOPING MY MARRIED FRIENDS WOULD START ASKING OVER MORE TO PLAY

GAMES SO I COULD EXPRESSED MY SENSE OF HUMOR.

I KNOW IT IS NOT GONE BUT I WANTED TO DO THAT.

AND WAITED PATIENTLY

 BEING A SINGLE WOMEN IS A REAL HAZARD OF LIFE

IT SHOULD NOT BE THAT WAY BUT IT IS.

  

I BELIEVE YOU KEPT ME BACK FROM SEEKING A PARTNER.

 SOME HOW I KNEW WHEN I DID SOMETHING THAT WOULD BE THE ONLY TIME

I WOULD DO THAT ESPECIALLY IN CHURCH..

THAT IS THE REASON I TRIED TO DO MY BEST 

AND 

CONSIDERED IT AN HONOR TO

SERVE THE CHURCH

IT WAS PERHAPS ONE OF THE MOST IMPORTANT

 THINGS I DID FOR YOU.

 LORD I LOVE THE CHURCH AND PRAY FOR IT TO DO WELL

 GET INVOLVED IN NFC AND SEE WHAT HAPPENS TO THE CHURCH

 I WANTED THAT TO HELP FOR ALL CHURCHES

 I KNEW WE HAD TO GET OUT OF OUR COMFORT  ZONE.

 LORD THE CHURCHES IN THE AREA ARE

 SUFFERING, AND I KNOW NFC WILL HELP.

 WHY DID  I HAVE TO GIVE UP MY PASSION

I KNOW YOU HAVE IT IN THE VERY BEST HANDS

 AND IT WILL WORK FOR THE GLORY OF ALL GOD'S PEOPLE

 AND THE PEOPLE SAID AMEN