I DON'T HAVE ANOTHER CHANCE

MY DEAREST LORD

THANK YOU FOR THIS OPPORTUNITY

 I DON'T TAKE THIS LIGHTLY

 I DON'T GET ANOTHER CHANCE!!!!

WHAT I WRITE

 WHAT I SAY

 WHAT I DO

 WHEN I WALK 

  

 WHEN I SPEAK

 WHEN I SWALLOW

 WHEN I BREATHE

 THIS IS MY ONLY STEP

 THIS CHANGES ME!!!

 I LOOK AT THE WORLD DIFFERENTLY

IT MAKES ME EMOTIONAL

 IT MAKES ME THANKFUL 

AND APPRECIATIVE

  

 GOD 

 IT MAKES ME ANGRY

 AND ASHAMED 

  

 AND  I COULD CURSE THE GROUND
  I WALK ON.
OR MAYBE
THAT
YOU WALK ON!

 MANY PEOPLE ARE PUT IN THIS POSITION

LORD 

  AT THE BEGINNING OF THIS

 CHAPTER

  

 I SAID I WAS CHECKING IN WITH YOU

TO SEE WHAT YOU WOULD DO WITH THIS MESS!

WELL I AM NOT SURE 

EITHER ONE OF US 

IS HANDLING THIS VERY WELL.

I KNOW I AM NOT. 

SOMETIMES I LAY DOWN KICKING AND SCREAMING

SOMETIMES I LAY DOWN AND AM SO APPRECIATIVE 

THAT I HAD THIS DAY 

AND 

SAW THESE PEOPLE 

AND 

HEARD THIS SAID

 AND 

DID THIS THING

THAT I AM OVERWHELMED.

 THIS IS LIVING LIFE IN

VIVID COLOR

AND 

TOTAL DARKNESS

LORD 

  I LIKED LIVING IN A MODERATE WAY

NOT TOO MUCH OF ANYTHING GOOD OR BAD 

   NOT GREAT WEALTH

 WELL MAYBE

 OR GREAT PAIN 

 OH NO

REALLY GOD 

 WE HUMANS

WANT IT OUR WAY

 BUT THAT IS NOT ALWAYS YOUR WAY.

WE NEVER WANT PAIN, DEATH, RIDICULE 

 HATE THE BAD STUFF

 BUT LOVE, KINDNESS

NURTURE

AND COOPERATION

  

 THAT IS WITH US 

 WHOOPS 

WHO SAYS WE ARE ENTITLED TO ANY THING

SO I GOT IT !!!

  

 IT IS MY JOB 

TO DEAL WITH IT

NOW
I KNOW GOD
YOU DON'T MEAN IT THAT WAY

HELP ME TO LEARN

 WHAT YOU WANT ME TO LEARN FROM THIS.

 TELL PEOPLE
WHAT YOU MEAN AT THE MOMENT

SAY WHAT YOU CAN AT THE MOMENT

 DO WHAT YOU CAN AT THE MOMENT

 BUT LORD 

 I CAN'T SPEAK LIKE I WOULD LIKE

 I CAN'T DO WHAT I WOULD LIKE TO DO 

 I CAN'T WALK AND GO LIKE I WOULD LIKE TO 

  

 REMEMBER LORD 

 I AM NOT SUPPOSE TO DRIVE. 

 WHY LORD IS THIS DISEASE SO IMMEDIATE

 GIVE UP NOW OR YOU WILL LOSE

 DO IT NOW OR YOU WILL LOSE

 WHY DOES THIS DISEASE DEMAND SO MUCH SO FAST?

  

 I AM A LITTLE SLOWER THAN THIS.

 WHY CAN'T PEOPLE SEE THIS IS DIFFICULT?

 WHY CAN'T THEY SEE THE MORE I DO
THE MORE I CAN DO

I DON'T WANT TO GIVE UP AND SIT IN A ROOM.

I HAVE NOT FIGURED OUT HOW TO DO THIS

 I AM JUST ASKING YOU TO ALLOW ME A LITTLE TIME TO ADJUST.

I AM SORRY
I AM NOT WORKING FAST ENOUGH

  

 I MEAN TO EMPTY MY HOUSE

 SELL MY HOUSE 

  

 FINISH NFC

  

 LORD,
I HAVE SO MUCH TO GIVE

 GIVE ME THE STRENGTH TO DO WHAT YOU WANT ME TO DO.

 BE WITH WHOM YOU WANT ME TO BE  WITH

SEE THE PEOPLE YOU WANT ME TO SEE

MANY TIMES PEOPLE SAY

GO DO WHAT YOU WANT TO DO.  

 IF I HAD THE MONEY AND THE HEALTH I WOULD

  BUT THANK GOD I DON'T

 THEN I CAN DEPEND ON YOU TO GUIDE MY STEPS

 I WILL FOLLOW YOUR LEAD

 IF I HAVE NOT VENTURED THE WORLD 

 YOU IN THIS LIGHT WILL SHOW ME THE WORLD

 I HAVE ALWAYS DEPENDED ON YOU TO SHOW ME THE WAY

 WHY CHANGE NOW.

 YOU HAVE SHOWED ME THE MENTALLY CHALLENGED

 THE HOMELESS AND THE VERY ILL.

 ALL KINDS OF DISEASES

 EVEN THOSE WHO LOOK NORMAL????

 WE ARE ALL ON A CONTINUUM 

JUST
IF I CAN SEE

NORMAL IS JUST A SETTING ON THE CLOTHES DRYER

PEOPLE ARE FLAWED AND YOU LOVE US ALL 

 SO WHO AM I NOT TO SEE ALL AS MY BROTHERS
AND LEARN FROM THEM

LORD I HAVE LEARNED SO MUCH LOVE

 WHY WASTE THIS AND HAVE THIS ILLNESS TAKE A WAY WHAT I CAN GIVE

 COACH

 I AM BEGGING YOU KEEP ME IN THE GAME  

 EVEN IF I AM JUST A WATER BOY

I WILL GIVE WATER TO EVERYONE  

 JUST LET ME BE A WATER BOY!