EVERYBODY HAS ANSWERS WHAT I SHOULD DO

GOD

HOW DO I EXPLAIN

I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO !!  

WITH ANYTHING

 MY EATING!!

MY EXERCISE!! 

MY THROWING THINGS AWAY! 

MY GIVING THINGS AWAY!  

MY SELLING THINGS!

MY ENDING MY LIFE SOON AS I KNOW IT!

HURRY UP YOU MIGHT NOT BE ABLE!

WAIT YOU HAVE TIME!

WE DON'T KNOW WHAT WILL HAPPEN TO YOU

WE DON'T KNOW WHEN IT WILL HAPPEN

IT COULD HAPPEN ANY TIME

ORDER A WHEEL CHAIR

DECIDE WHETHER YOU WANT TO HAVE A VENTILATOR OR NOT

DECIDE WHETHER YOU WANT TO LIVE ON YOUR OWN  

OR GO INTO A NURSING HOME  

GOD 

I DON'T LIKE THESE CHOICES

HOW CAN I THINK FAST ENOUGH?

HOW CAN I TELL PEOPLE WHAT I NEED

DON'T ASK TOO MUCH OF PEOPLE 

THEY HAVE TO WORK  

THEY ARE GOING ON VACATION

THEY HAVE THIS TIME

I AM HERE FOR THIS TIME.  

I CAN HELP YOU NOW

WE NEED TO GET RID OF THINGS NOW

I DON'T WANT TO FEEL GUILTY THAT I DID NOT HELP YOU END YOUR LIFE 

I DON'T HAVE TIME TO CLEAN UP AFTER YOU DIE

GOD MAKE THIS STOP!!!

HOW DO ANY OF US MAKE SENSE OF THIS.

HOW FAST IS THIS DISEASE PROGRESSING?

WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME?

WHY DOES MY ARM CRAMP UP?

DID I DO TOO MUCH OR NOT ENOUGH?

DO I LAY DOWN OR EXERCISE?

DO I GET RID OF STUFF OR FILE IT?

 WILL I NEED IT OR NEVER USE IT?

HOW DO I WORK MY COMPUTER?

DO I PAY TO FIX IT OR LIVE WITH IT?

GOD 

I AM BEING FLOODED WITH DECISIONS TO MAKE

EVERYTHING TAKES A DECISION

WHY CAN'T I JUST ENJOY SOMETHING  

GOD  

 I KNOW THIS IS NOT YOUR PLAN

BUT 

 HOW DO I DEAL WITH THIS.

IT IS PURE ANGUISH!

GOD  

  

 I DON'T WANT TO BE A BURDEN  

  

PLEASE GIVE ME SOME RELIEF

GOD  I THANK YOU 

I JUST HAVE NOT MADE A DECISION 

FOR WHAT!   

GOD, I PRAISE YOU

FOR GIVING ME A CHALLENGE  

  

AT LEAST THAT WHAT PEOPLE SAY I SHOULD DO!

GOD  

 TO HELL WITH IT

JUST GET RID OF THIS

OR 

SHOW ME 

THE WAY, 

THE TRUTH 

AND 

THE LIGHT.

I AM STILL HANGING WITH YOU 

BUT

I DON'T KNOW HOW