It is 2:00 AM and Jay Leno is on IMAGINE NOT 11:30 PM

HELLO GOD

OR 

 HELL GOD

I DO NOT KNOW WHY I AM AWAKE

I AM NERVOUS ABOUT GOING TO MY 45TH REUNION

I SAID I WOULD AND RICH IS COMING UP TO TAKE ME

MITZIE SAID,

WE WILL TALK FOR YOU 

AT FIRST WHEN THE REUNION CAME UP 

I WROTE MITZIE AND SAID

I CAN NOT TALK AND PROBABLY WON'T GO TO THE REUNION

THAT WAS BACK IN APRIL AND 

  

I DID NOT WRITE ON FACE BOOK

BECAUSE I COULD NOT THINK OF ANYTHING TO SAY!!

THAT IS NOT LIKE ME.  

AT THAT TIME 

I DID NOT KNOW,

I HAD ALS

THEN I FOUND OUT AND SAID 

I COULD NOT GO BECAUSE I WOULD CRY INCESSANTLY

THEN 

I THOUGHT I CAN NOT GO 

BECAUSE  STACY KNOWS 

I MAY LAUGH UNCONTROLLABLY.

I WANTED TO WRITE RUSTY BECAUSE HE KEPT

CHECKING ON ME BUT I

I DID NOT KNOW WHAT TO SAY.

SO LINDA TROZZO AND SUSAN WANTED ME TO GO

EVERYBODY I LOVE

LINDA MULLENDORE KEPT WRITING ME 

AND 

I TOLD 

CAROLYN MCINTYRE BECAUSE I WORKED WITH HER AS A 

PRAYER PARTNER AT THE HOSPITAL.

I LOVED THAT JOB IN THE CANCER WING AT SACRED HEART.

I GUESS GOD YOU WERE PREPARING ME!

 YOU SURE HAVE NOT LEFT ME OFF EASY.

I CAN NOT DO THIS BY MYSELF.

MY 1965 CLASS IS THE BEST!

THEY KNOW WHO I WAS.

SOME KNOW WHO I HAVE BECOME

SO THEY THINK!

HELL GOD 

I DON'T KNOW WHO I AM!

HOW DO YOU GET TO THE END OF YOUR LIFE AND NOT KNOW WHO YOU ARE?

I FEEL SORRY FOR THOSE WHO HAVE NOT SEARCHED

THE DEPTH'S OF THEIR OWN SOULS.

I HAVE REALLY SEARCHED AND WORKED AT IT!

AND NOW AT LAST

I AM THE FINAL CURVE

AND 

DON'T REALLY KNOW HOW I FEEL!!!

WHO I WILL BECOME

IN FACT I KNOW LITTLE ABOUT WHO I AM OR WHAT I BELIEVE.!

I AM SEARCHING MY DEPTHS

I AM REACHING FOR YOU 

PLEASE HELP ME 

PLEASE SAVE ME 

FROM MYSELF

GOD BLESS LIFE

GOD 

WHY IS LIFE SO PAINFUL?