DEAR GOD
I WANT THIS TO STOP
HOW DO I COPE
I HAVE PLANS
I AM GOING TO TRY AND CALL BILL LEWIS TO HELP ME WITH MY COMPUTER EARLY THIS MORNING.
THEN KRISTIN IS COMING TO PICK ME UP AND TAKE ME TO
DR. AMANDA IN MORGANTOWN
SHE IS MY DENTIST
I KNOW SHE IS GOING TO SAY I NEED
A ROOT CANAL
A ROOT CANAL
BUT LORD
SHE ONLY GOING TO DESIGN SOMETHING FOR MY
JAW JERK
[ ANOTHER ALS SYMPTOM]
WHY GOD WHY IS MY BODY FAILING ME
THANK YOU GOD
THANK YOU GOD
I PRAISE YOU, GOD !!
I PRAISE YOU, GOD !!
I HAVE LOST A LOT
BUT GOD
I STILL HAVE MY MIND
I REALLY DON'T KNOW HOW YOU DID THAT.
THAT IS TRULY A MIRACLE
BEWARE OF A CRISIS
A MIRACLE IS ABOUT TO HAPPEN.
I GUESS THAT IS YOUR MIRACLE !!!
I TRULY PRAISE YOU GOD
I AM ASKING YOU ONE MORE THING
TOUCH ME AND EVERYONE CONNECTED WITH TO HAVE THE STRENGTH
TO DEAL WITH THIS THING.
I WANT TO TELL YOU A LITTLE STORY:
I BLEW IT LORD!
MY DEAREST JONNA MY MASSAGE THERAPIST, SHE TRIED SO HARD TO HELP ME
AND I REALLY BLEW IT.
I BAWLED ALL THROUGH THE MASSAGE.
WE BOTH DID.
IT WAS SO DIFFICULT ON US.
PLEASE LORD BE WITH US THE NEXT TIME SO I CAN BEHAVE.
I TRUST THAT YOU WILL BE THERE THE NEXT TIME.
Dear Jane, Relax as much as possible and know that God will always be with you. As will all of the people who love you will be praying for you. The pain and the strength in your prayers help me to know God is with you. I love you and good luck today, xoxoxoxooxox Barbara
ReplyDeleteDear Jane,
ReplyDeleteI have your card taped to my desk as promised, and I finally had a moment at lunch today to check out your blog. It is so insightful to see your thought process as you go through all of the struggles of dealing with this disease. You are a very strong person, and I am so thankful that you are finding hope and strength in God, you family and your friends!! It was a nice suprise to see that you mentioned me in your post ;) I am sorry I did have bad news for that tooth...but I think we knew it was only a matter of time before you needed a root canal!! I am headed over to the orthodontics department this afternoon to start planning your appliance, I will let you know what we come up with in the next few days!
XOXO Amanda
Dear Jane,
ReplyDeleteYou are so right in saying that this day was difficult for both of us. I know we will have up and downs in our time together and I want you to know that whenever you are working with me, It is your time and if you need to laugh, We'll laugh, if you need to cry, we'll cry, and if you need to sleep you can sleep (wouldnt be good if we both did though)
I am honored that you mentioned me in your blog. From reading your newer post you wrong about feeling selfish, Your not selfish at all and no one would think that...I want you to know since you came into my life almost two years ago, You have touch my soul and just having you in my life has help me grow has a person and I thank you for your Kindness, Wisdom and Love!
Always here with a loving Touch,
Jonna Pendergast